tuesday

stayd in yesterday started on the back room chucking out allot of stuff in the corner. found loads of tesco bags. dont need any more!! done some stitching on stitch a photo on the face and bacground.
god didn't i know i had kira last night she upset me  last night, i've told her she's not having a treat now i was going to get her for the hospital on thursday. she can wait till she's nice again.  she kicked off about dad this dad that, dad does this dad does that i went what exactly has dad done this year kira?? i went turn up an hour later when we got to the hospital, i went he wasnt there when you got there he wasn't there when we were till gone 7.30pm he made an excuse he was working at 6pm, turned up in his uniform for an excuse. i went has he phoned you up since,no he hasn't i said he hasn't even bothered to txt to ask how you are i went everyone else has!!. i went has he asked to take you out this year no he hasn't. i went how many times has he phoned this year i went 3. and we are now in march!! i went last time you didnt want to talk to him when he called my phone on the 9th feb.
she better come home in a better mood today!! i'm gonna buy lots of chocolate i think when i go  out in a bit. i needed it last night i felt like a drink and i don't drink as don't have any in.
i said does dad organise craft courses that you can go on at school and craft course we are doing at weekends?? i went does he sit with you thru them does he take you to youth club, cubs and when i take you out during holidays??. she went no i went he don't do allot does he? she went no he don't.  she came down and said sorry and made a pinky swear she wouldn't kick off like that again!! doubt that will last somehow. gonna buy some rosemary today to burn around the house get rid of all the negative energy again. gonna ask dad if he can help me move her room around. maybe her bed in another place might help.  her tv went last night and she kicked off over that saying i wished i had a new one.  i went i wanted to get you one for xmas but you didn't want it!!  told her he works he gets allot more money, ask him to buy you one she went he don't spend more than £5 on us i said well there you are. i think it finally kicked in he don't do allot!! 
not as if she has it on allot she only watches a dvd she can use her dvd player and i said she will have to put her music on her ipod thru speakers she got.