Respite carer didn't show Saturday Jeanluc wasn't amused as we left youthclub early for it. 

Had dla visit today lovely lady talk to. Saw his drs letter and all went well. Signpost fixed his door today he can now shut it heaven!!

Yesterday took kira to Poole gets eyes tested got new prescription so got two new glasses both free. Even better got to pick up on Saturday. Which is good she have them before school 

Started a corner to corner crochet love the colours wasn't sure to begin with but falling in love with it might be mine!!

Gave in yesterday called Jeanluc dr said the new meds have not kicked in been 3 months think I've given them enough chance!! To work spoke to sec got a appointment coming up soon school won't like but I want quiet Jeanluc back lol. Been extremely loud today!! And doing daft things on them he needs his concentration back

Been doing my crochet granny stripe today kira went on sewing machine made me a thread bag so I can put grandads threads in it for his stitch a photo. 

Kira having fun on sewing machine I got kicked out lol. Mum I do use one at school you know!!

Yes craft table messy I was in there cutting out for a rag rug today so fleece everywhere  we might start it next week. I get kira on it as well will keep her off minecraft for a bit!!

She's not even been on laptop tonight been nice she watched Sarah Jane for a hour then went in craft room and got her fabric out.

Trouble us she wants more fabric now dread it when we go in cotton moon next in town lol. She be heading that way!!

Normally drags me away as I want wool be her heading towards it lol.

Yucky cold could do without, got a new chap coming to see Jeanluc tomorrow hopefully a new respite care worker for him be bliss if they get on. Got youthclub first will have to leave early

Washing machine door cracked this week I got a new door on Wednesday here today quick eh just didn't have right screwdriver to get old one off typical so dad coming to sort it

Jeanluc enjoyed his work experience first part of week wasn't too good then he got working with good he enjoyed it. 

Somehow I think I'm gonna loose my craft room to kira lol

Getting on well with cardigan so far gotta start decreasing it soon. Started crochet squares from the red heart granny square app as well. Photo of cardigan yesterday done more since then 

Started my heart tablets last week thankfully no nightmares like mum had on them they knock me out!!

Cut the grass today much easier with new mower dad got me other one I had for years.  Dad did some of the hedge he got a petrol cutter be better so he don't cut thru lead lol. 

Jeanluc is enjoying work experience now hated first day but has had two good days. 

It's gone quick this week

I find it amusing a new phone given for his birthday yet he hasn't called it says allot don't it!!

Mind you don't think they realise how old he is showed cafe worker his card she went eh?? How old does he think he is he's not a baby I went yep I know.  I just laughed when Jeanluc opened it no thought it's for a baby boy Jeanluc turned 16!!

Hopefully a new respite care worker soon Jeanluc will be meeting him will help allot he's a handful. My marathon session starts next week half term I be shattered!! Hope tablets take effect before then I'm gonna need it!!   Kira's ankle fine now went on trampoline today without a thought to her foot so that's good I emailed teacher said pe again lol. Well at least she likes pe at that school

 

my son's 16th today boy the day went quick!!! he had a fab day. I went to poole n got his birthday cookie cake and kfc for tea which we all enjoyed.
mum n dad came for tea kira was down here with the loom bracelet she's got mad on now she's sussed it out i'm gonna have to sit n watch the utube to see how she does it.
well today I took ramipril starting to dread the side effects after reading!! but i'm gonna give it ago see if it helps. if side effects bad i'll be coming off it.
i became a great aunty today my nephew n wife had a baby boy jayden so cute!! can't wait to go have a cuddle glad i can give back lol.. been there done that hehe.
gonna take up ipad to bed just incase or i might take knitting incase i get bad side effects hopefully not straight away.
jeanluc got a charger lead that lights up when charging he loved it kira gave him that and headphones i gave him iTunes voucher he loved and clothes. mum n dad gave him money so did my nan. his bus gave him money as well and his dad gave him a phone which never rang today no surprise  been over a year now no call.
my brother taking card round mums tomorrow as he was on granddad duty today lol. looking after adam  and waiting for new grandson he's so cute i sent mum photo soon as it went up on fb.
jeanluc wants to go spend his money on Saturday just hope i'm ok to drive after reading all side effects. wish i never looked into them sometimes not knowing i better!!
been sorting out printer kira going into a music talent contest tomorrow wanted to print from computer but wouldn't print so i ended up doing from ipad in the end i gave up on word doc.
gonna tackle his room tomorrow don't look too bad i did down here yesterday moved it all around. wanna do my room next need to move it around as well. and i'm in a decorating mood want to  paint fed up with this colour scheme in here want to go different and wall paper one wall. showed kira the colour ohhh me like she went.

been a phone day this morning after n hour sorting everything out I called dr's was told he'd phone me back. so I had a day In waiting for him to call back and I changed the living room around wish I hadn't as it knackered me out!!
called me after 5pm I gotta pick up a prescription for heart tablets yucky, ones my mum went on she had bad side effects with them so not looking forward to it at all.
looking at side effects suppose to be for my heart n allot of the side effects are on the heart so I don't get it??
see what happens when I take them, it took me twice as long today to do move all around normally id have it done in the morning was still sorting out this afternoon I had to keep stopping n taking a break. now feel I could sonk!!
 might need sleep as mum got really bad nightmares on these tablets I went wouldn't bother me as i'm already having them lol.
I think last night was first night in months I've sept thru!!
my little boy growing up 16 tomorrow!! think i'm more excited than jeanluc is lol. big boy now well taller than me be 6ft in no time!!
had a card from bus today carer dropped it off on way back didn't want him taking to school. kira has written out her card I've got his pressie in his card iTunes card he wanted. I get some more bits tomorrow while i'm out.
 so he can open when he gets home. he wants a millies cookie cake so getting one tomorrow and a kfc for tea he be happy!!
I might be able to knit tonight now I've sorted out in here I could really tell it taking its toll on my heart with me sitting every now n then never used to.

Doing my crochet blanket today In between Jeanluc strops. Lot of change this week and not taking it well today we made some scones n then did some in he cake pop machine yum yum went down well 

At least we got half term after work experience to get over change.

We had birthday cake yesterday at youthclub they all enjoyed it. Seems funny joy being at paultons park todayusually go this weekend with youthclub but been moved to June  

Went to Poole get a few things for Jeanluc birthday got home got shopping in then call from school kira has hurt ankle lovely!!

So a trip to blandford a@e today thankfully just a sprain really swollen just hope only a sprain said if any probs to go back she walked in ok so should be ok fingers crossed.

She said no pe for two weeks she cheered lol. And day off tomorrow 

Been one of them weeks!! Be nice to stay in tomorrow n watch DVDs with her I got today cheap in exc dr who DVDs.

She was looking forward to doing sewing tomorrow at school starting on there bags hopefully she get to start next week.

Poor mite was in pain till meds kicked in sat downstairs with me all night cuddling me.

Wanted to stay awake but was sonked out not long after going bed

She is absolutely obsessed with dr who at the moment it was non stop chat about it tonight 

Was nice this morning now chucking it down!! Dad finished of garden for me I was waiting for call from gp.  Got a telling off for not coming in today as I rarely book appointment for me

So he new it was serious when he got message I got to start heart tablets again not fun. No surprise really grief I've been getting from school stressing me out he's not amused. 

I'm gonna try n not let the man upset me 2 months then a new teacher hopefully!!

Soon as he gets letter from my heart consultant he's gonna call me to pick up medication not looking forward to it I hated it last time I went on them

I was at school last time, so I'm lucky really only effected me now.  Gonna settle n do some knitting on cardigan In a bit n relax

Got a new book had a crochet pot holder so tried it with Stylecraft yarn needed to make a Thankyou pressie   Gonna make some more I like these.  My cardigan below using king riot domino yarn  more done since I took that at mums Saturday. She helped me with next bit of pattern why can't they just put it as simple so we can knit instead of puzzling it out lol

Jeanluc a nightmare today feel like I've run a marathon n half. Kira went off with her friend all afternoon n played cricket.

He was really nasty this afternoon I took laptop away n said not having till room tidied up. Cursing shouting from him then I heard banging guessed he was tidying up lol. Amazing what happens when minecraft is taken away!!

 Just hope he's in better mood tomorrow I keep reminding him 16 in a weeks time gotta be nice I cancelled youthclub yesterday as he was not Good Friday did not like that one bit. He's got youth club this Saturday as well so he needs to behave.   Would of thought new meds would of kicked in by now on 3rd packet. 

after much regret I had to drop out of a atc club I was in for years, thinking would be understanding but unfortunately not so I've been upset by this.
when you think they would be, after knowing me for years doing the club that people have more things in life that come first ie a autistic aspergers adhd ocd tourettes son who is turning 16 in two weeks time and is becoming more of a handful.
 I have had a day from hell today so didn't need that to end it.
 I thought I was being polite to put a message up to say I couldn't cope with it but oh well. life goes on. I was hoping I could rejoin the club next year but wasn't expecting the coldness I got so asked to be removed which was a shame
I don't have a male figure at home as he's not involved , so i'm both mum and dad to him trying to make him understand all sorts. as it's taking it's toll on me so all I wanna do when I get time to myself is knit n relax i'm finding it hard to pick up stitching
I got my granddad's stitch a photo I want to try n pick up but I have seemed to of lost my stitching mojo everyone gets it!! I just can't bring myself to stitch.
  I seem to be more relaxed in knitting or crochet stitching I have to concertrate on knitting n crochet I don't need to.
so I've taken on a challenge a huge one for me to knit a cardigan never done one before so not a clue how it's gonna turn out. might have more wholes than needed lol.